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Special- A ringtone story

A while back, when I was young and foolish, I used to dedicate special ringtones for special people.
Family ringtones were always fine.. family will always be family. The problem with that dedicated ringtone for that special someone; you get attached to it.
When you miss them, you hear it in your mind and feel a compulsive obsession to sms something sexy, witty or funny, because when they get that, they will call , and you will hear your special ringtone.
You'd be out having coffee with your friends and the ringtone would put a confident smile on your face, even though you won't pick up, you know that they miss you too.
You'd be at work and that phone rings and you find your colleagues sheepishly smiling, cause it has become a habit that you take calls with that special ringtone out, instead of on your desk.
You'd be driving, and some random dude in some random car is playing that special song at a high volume in the car, and no matter how pissed off you could be after that argument with that special someone, the ringtone-like-song just melts your heart and you call.
Now that we've painted the positive picture, what happens when the special ringtone remains, but not the special someone?!
You'll miss the ringtone, wether you want to or not. You'll catch yourself staring at your phone asking it to play the special ringtone, then you'd remember and you'd feel a bitterness in your heart.
Your heart will break every single time you hear the song on the radio, no matter how long after the person ceases to be special. 
The good news though, when you've had a number of special ringtones through the time, all of them cease to be special anymore.
And my lesson to you today, boys and girls.. don't use ringtones!

-- Probably March 2013

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