You know how many people are shy; as in prefer an intimate setting to a crowd, feel more comfortable with people they know than strangers…etc. I always have been far from that. I mean I do have my moments of shyness, but never had a stage-fright per se. I was always comfortable in crowds as I am with friends. But somehow, as messed up as things can get, I think I flipped to the other side, completely. To top all insecurities possible, I actually feel more comfortable in crowds now. I am more comfortable talking to a thousand people on a podium than with 3 or 4 friends over dinner. Yes, sick, I know.
I think it’s a defense mechanism, I felt rejected by so many “close” people, that I no longer feel like exposing my soul. So I prefer crowds, talking about the weather, startups, economic situation and how it affects startups and nail polish colors that keep getting crazier every day.
But like in The Great Gatsby, where Fitzgerlad said "And I like large parties. They’re so intimate. At small parties there isn’t any privacy."
-- Early May 2013
-- Early May 2013
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