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You're just pms-ing
Yasmine, be strong!
It's probably just stress.
That's what you all say, isn't it?
You have a certain definition of what strength is and since you define me as a strong woman, then I'm expected to fit in the mould you've created of what a strong woman should be.
Well, I'm not sorry to disappoint you, but here is the truth.
Strength is honesty; being honest to admit that yes, it may be nothing on your scale but it's a big deal on mine; it affects me, I'm not proud but I'm learning to move on.
Strong is accepting vulnerability; I might be strong in my career life, determined, a fighter, a leader, whatever you want to call it, but at night, strong is going to bed when you need a hug and waking up without getting it.
Strong is faking it; can you even imagine how many days I put a fake smile and my formal business attire to run the show when all I wanted was to curl under my cover, hug my pillow and cry.
Strength is shoving it up; big girls don't cry, they don't bitch and moan and they don't dwell on bitterness even. I'm a big girl, I know.
Strength is dieting when your only friend is a chocolate marble cheesecake. It's exercising when you've been stuck in traffic for 1.5 hours. It's studying for the f@$%ing GMAT when you're exhausted from working 16 hours straight.
Strength is waking up everyday knowing I'm growing older, uglier, and that today isn't going to be any better nor is next week nor month and possibly not next year either , but still go on and inspire positivity so someone else feels better.
Strength is still calling you when I need a friend, despite you not saying much, despite you not believing I need you.
Strong is still trying.
But hoping, isn't strength. It's stupidity.
And that's why I need a friend, who won't tell me to be strong, but will stop me from being stupid. So bare with me just a little if I'm not strong by your standards, I'm trying not be stupid.
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