Isn't it amazing that you find someone amazing, who actually thinks you're fun and seems not to mind spending some time with you?! Sa7? Isn't it frustrating, akher 7aga, that that's it; that's the max you can get out of it, 'some' time!
I end up over panicking about saying or doing the wrong things in fear of messing up my 'time'. 7aga sakheefa gidan. But then when I'm with that person, I just feel peace and calmness I never felt before. It doesn't even make sense, mostly people used to get on my nerves not make me calm. Mesh ba2oloko it's really amazing.
But I hate him! I hate how he is so great. I hate how this life is so twisted that you meet ,potentially, the right person at the wrong time. I hate that I have to take the backseat , and wait to see what life is going to throw my way, instead of stirring life myself. I hate how right it feels but how it is so wrong. And I hate that I'm writing about it. And to end it, I'll quote 'But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.'
--from 10 things I hate about you