Although it doesn't make any sense why so would like to read my venting and pouring out my pointless thoughts, but since some do, then they deserve an update.
Family matters are working fine now, Karim (the bro) katab kitabo, Yousra (the sis) turned 18 and got her driver's license. Relationship with parents improving. We had a death in the family though which made me contemplate and think a a number of things.
Guy turned out to be , just like the normal pattern of educated, well-read, well-traveled, and interesting people.... not appropriate for religious compatibility, so I aborted the pursuit, even on google. Naturally, there was a bit of disappointment, why is this pattern there? Guys who are interesting on the intellectual level have mostly abandoned believing in God. I almost thought it was not possible to ever meet my dream guy and started picturing myself as the old lonely woman in black who has 10 cats (, but then Meyo (the best friend), asked me a brilliant question. She asked if I ever met someone who meets the intellectual profile as well as the religious one, even if he was married. So I kept thinking and thinking and thinking, and yes.. I actually met two (God bless them both), so if there are two, there maybe a third and a forth and maybe even, someone for me :D. So I relaxed a bit, cause I really couldn't deal with that old lonely woman picture, I don't even like cats.
Work ba2a, I hate it, it's official. Every time I convince myself there is something there to like, this something lasts less than 24 hours. I hate it. I hate everything about it. Ever since I started, I've been depressed, indulging in over-eating and over-sleeping. I'm becoming very anti-social. I wake up with a severe headache and go to bed dreading the following day. Ever since we started, terrible things happened to me or members of my team. Teammates who made my stay easier at work are slipping away one, first Mardini, then Zeinab, and who knows who's next. Let alone the fact that I feel like a heavy weight on my heart every time I think about it. I mean , if all this doesn't count as an answer to my istikhara prayer, then what does?!
Anyway, I'll go now.
I'm hoping that God will give me the strength to move on past this.
Salam
Family matters are working fine now, Karim (the bro) katab kitabo, Yousra (the sis) turned 18 and got her driver's license. Relationship with parents improving. We had a death in the family though which made me contemplate and think a a number of things.
Guy turned out to be , just like the normal pattern of educated, well-read, well-traveled, and interesting people.... not appropriate for religious compatibility, so I aborted the pursuit, even on google. Naturally, there was a bit of disappointment, why is this pattern there? Guys who are interesting on the intellectual level have mostly abandoned believing in God. I almost thought it was not possible to ever meet my dream guy and started picturing myself as the old lonely woman in black who has 10 cats (, but then Meyo (the best friend), asked me a brilliant question. She asked if I ever met someone who meets the intellectual profile as well as the religious one, even if he was married. So I kept thinking and thinking and thinking, and yes.. I actually met two (God bless them both), so if there are two, there maybe a third and a forth and maybe even, someone for me :D. So I relaxed a bit, cause I really couldn't deal with that old lonely woman picture, I don't even like cats.
Work ba2a, I hate it, it's official. Every time I convince myself there is something there to like, this something lasts less than 24 hours. I hate it. I hate everything about it. Ever since I started, I've been depressed, indulging in over-eating and over-sleeping. I'm becoming very anti-social. I wake up with a severe headache and go to bed dreading the following day. Ever since we started, terrible things happened to me or members of my team. Teammates who made my stay easier at work are slipping away one, first Mardini, then Zeinab, and who knows who's next. Let alone the fact that I feel like a heavy weight on my heart every time I think about it. I mean , if all this doesn't count as an answer to my istikhara prayer, then what does?!
Anyway, I'll go now.
I'm hoping that God will give me the strength to move on past this.
Salam
Comments
When I read the old woman thing and before I read that part I thought:
1) hands off! the old woman/cats future dream fantasy is rightfully mine since forever (invented by Karim)
2) you dont even like cats (you said it)
It doesnt sound very reassuring coming from me, but it _will_ all be fine, eventually.