For today's post, I'll just put a quote from one of my favorite movies, and a line from one of my favorite songs. These represent my mood now.
From Love Actually,
Daniel: So what's the problem, Sammy-o? Is it just Mum or is it something else? Maybe... school - are you being bullied? Or is it something worse? Can you give me any clues at all?
Sam: You really want to know?
Daniel: I really want to know.
Sam: Even though you won't be able to do anything to help?
Daniel: Even if that's the case, yeah.
Sam: Okay. Well, the truth is... actually... I'm in love.
Daniel: Sorry?
Sam: I know I should be thinking about Mum all the time, and I am. But the truth is I'm in love and I was before she died, and there's nothing I can do about it.
Daniel: [laughs] Aren't you a bit young to be in love?
Sam: No.
Daniel: Oh, well, okay, right. Well, I mean, I'm a little relieved.
Sam: Why?
Daniel: Well, because I thought it would be something worse.
Sam: [incredulous] Worse than the total agony of being in love?
Daniel: Oh. No, you're right. Yeah, total agony.
And from, Book of my life , by Sting
There are promises broken and promises kept
Angry words that were spoken, when I should have wept
There's a chapter of secrets, and words to confess
If I lose everything that I possess
There's a chapter on loss and a ghost who won't die
There's a chapter on love where the ink's never dry
There are sentences served in a prison I built out of lies.
And from the old posts, I give you , part of the 4th of November 2004, which had 4 pieces in it. This is the first:
IN A MOMENT OF INSANITY
A struggle whether to give up and let go
Or to stick with the hope and a memory of the day we laughed.
A struggle with myself, to make a choice.
Each option is torture, let go of a dream, of that day coming back
Or stick with the pain until it does.
After the struggle that went on for months
In one moment of insanity, I decided ...
Insanity came suddenly, too beautiful but too deadly...
Perhaps it's a drug, to give you peace and tranquility
But take away your soul…
And in that moment I saw peace at a distance..
I knew I had to get there
I just didn't know how
Maybe if I gave up everything…
Maybe if I tried…
I let go of everything,
One at a time
Plans, Ambition, Career
Friends, Family, Self
All that remains is the insanity and the hope of the day coming back
(November 4, 2004)
From Love Actually,
Daniel: So what's the problem, Sammy-o? Is it just Mum or is it something else? Maybe... school - are you being bullied? Or is it something worse? Can you give me any clues at all?
Sam: You really want to know?
Daniel: I really want to know.
Sam: Even though you won't be able to do anything to help?
Daniel: Even if that's the case, yeah.
Sam: Okay. Well, the truth is... actually... I'm in love.
Daniel: Sorry?
Sam: I know I should be thinking about Mum all the time, and I am. But the truth is I'm in love and I was before she died, and there's nothing I can do about it.
Daniel: [laughs] Aren't you a bit young to be in love?
Sam: No.
Daniel: Oh, well, okay, right. Well, I mean, I'm a little relieved.
Sam: Why?
Daniel: Well, because I thought it would be something worse.
Sam: [incredulous] Worse than the total agony of being in love?
Daniel: Oh. No, you're right. Yeah, total agony.
And from, Book of my life , by Sting
There are promises broken and promises kept
Angry words that were spoken, when I should have wept
There's a chapter of secrets, and words to confess
If I lose everything that I possess
There's a chapter on loss and a ghost who won't die
There's a chapter on love where the ink's never dry
There are sentences served in a prison I built out of lies.
And from the old posts, I give you , part of the 4th of November 2004, which had 4 pieces in it. This is the first:
IN A MOMENT OF INSANITY
A struggle whether to give up and let go
Or to stick with the hope and a memory of the day we laughed.
A struggle with myself, to make a choice.
Each option is torture, let go of a dream, of that day coming back
Or stick with the pain until it does.
After the struggle that went on for months
In one moment of insanity, I decided ...
Insanity came suddenly, too beautiful but too deadly...
Perhaps it's a drug, to give you peace and tranquility
But take away your soul…
And in that moment I saw peace at a distance..
I knew I had to get there
I just didn't know how
Maybe if I gave up everything…
Maybe if I tried…
I let go of everything,
One at a time
Plans, Ambition, Career
Friends, Family, Self
All that remains is the insanity and the hope of the day coming back
(November 4, 2004)
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