I'm in that state when I don't know myself anymore.
I used to be tense when in silent, but now I appreciate silence more than words most of the time.
I used to understand how I feel about different things/people/plans/places but so far, I don't even have feelings towards most things.
I am used to knowing, now the most common thing I say is "I don't know".
And I'm used to being emotional, now I feel cold & distant, from everyone and anyone.
I used to be kind, sensitive and selfless, now I look at myself and don't know who this selfish, abusive, exploiting, manipulative bitch is. And where did the nice one go?
I'm very confused, I'm emotionally drained and I can't make up my mind.
I'm stuck in a vacuum of thoughts and emotions looking at the ticking clock wondering when that state will end. It's new to me and I don't like it.
I used to be tense when in silent, but now I appreciate silence more than words most of the time.
I used to understand how I feel about different things/people/plans/places but so far, I don't even have feelings towards most things.
I am used to knowing, now the most common thing I say is "I don't know".
And I'm used to being emotional, now I feel cold & distant, from everyone and anyone.
I used to be kind, sensitive and selfless, now I look at myself and don't know who this selfish, abusive, exploiting, manipulative bitch is. And where did the nice one go?
I'm very confused, I'm emotionally drained and I can't make up my mind.
I'm stuck in a vacuum of thoughts and emotions looking at the ticking clock wondering when that state will end. It's new to me and I don't like it.
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