A piece of my mind

If you let me, here's what I'll do... I'll take care of you! 'Take Care' by Drake/ rihanna

Isn't it amazing that you find someone amazing, who actually thinks you're fun and seems not to mind spending some time with you?! Sa7? Isn't it frustrating, akher 7aga, that that's it; that's the max you can get out of it, 'some' time! I end up over panicking about saying or doing the wrong things in fear of messing up my 'time'. 7aga sakheefa gidan. But then when I'm with that person, I just feel peace and calmness I never felt before. It doesn't even make sense, mostly people used to get on my nerves not make me calm. Mesh ba2oloko it's really amazing. But I hate him! I hate how he is so great. I hate how this life is so twisted that you meet ,potentially, the right person at the wrong time. I hate that I have to take the backseat , and wait to see what life is going to throw my way, instead of stirring life myself. I hate how right it feels but how it is so wrong. And I hate that I'm writing about it. And to end it, I'll q...

I was just remembering 'my best friend's wedding' the other day, one of the really cute chickflicks. El mohem, two things are very memorable about this movie; the soundtrack (esp the cast version of 'I say a little prayer for you') and the heart aching quote by Julia Roberts I realize this comes at a very inopportune time, but I really have this gigantic favor to ask of you. Choose me. M-marry me. Let me make you happy. Oh, that sounds like three favors, doesn't it? W ba3d Kol da, Edaha el saboona and she ended up hanging out with the gay but handsome guy. So not cool, but c'est la vie, hane3mel eih!

One day I will have faith in myself, I will believe I am capable and I am doing a good job. One day, I will trust myself , I will accept that I deserve good things and that I truly am a good person. Just not today.

A few days back, someone called me a 'gorgeous woman'. Now, besides the fact that it's an amazing compliment, just made me think 'who are u talking to?' . I never saw myself as a 'woman', I mean, yes of course in gender terms, I am a woman. But I always saw myself as a 'girl'. Only very recently did I start accepting the term 'lady', now you're telling me 'woman'?!. It's odd I know. Woman is my mother, or someone else's. Or a femme fatal , or sexy boss in some box office movie. By all means, not me. I think i refer to women in two scenarios, either a combo of age + wisdom(hence mother) or some level of sexiness (hence femme fatal). Again, so not me! Another theory could be like Sylvia Plath classified in the bell jar; ' I saw the world divided into people who had slept with somebody and people who hadn’t, and this seemed the only really significant difference between one person and another'. Could this be the...

In business, sometimes you're forced to send someone a "friendly reminder" to pay their invoice or collect their stuff or send you the missing information. Anything of that sort. Because, I'm the kind of person that tries to practice what I preach, I took my business practice into my personal life. Sometimes I even feel I'm treating my life like a huge business project, but that's a story for another day. Remember, I was saying that something good is happening in my life? I have a reason for happiness, unexplainable and undefinable, but to which I am grateful and content. But, I know its temporary. Why? Because, life has taught me that all good things are. And the problem is, when good things end, it really hurts, right? I figured that the problem with happy days, is that one gets involved and forgets that they are temporary. We take the good days for granted. So, I came up with the plan.. not perfect, but hopefully it will work. When I see myself giggling...

In the last episode of the Zeww confession chronicles (not sure if there will be more to be honest, but hey.. humor me!). Anyway.. in the last episode.. I briefly told you how artist-dude came into my life. But this isn't the whole story, it gets complicated. The following morning, the ex-dude with the unknown relationship status comes back to life, he's flying over to see me. That "was"good news back then. So at this major event, the artist bazaar, I was dressed up and pretty, ex-dude was coming to see zeww. Artist-dude seemed to like the sight of zeww looking pretty and told his other artist friends. Leading to the matter, becoming a high school drama, of course, where artists coming to talk to zeww about giving artist-dude a chance and so forth. Then ex-dude came over to the event, and naturally, we spent some good time laughing and joking. Artist -dude felt jealous and waited till ex-dude left then came over to talk and asked "I thought we had a little t...

Dear world I confess... I lied.. and it's here to haunt me! Well, don't take it so seriously. It's just here to bug me. And it wasn't that big of a lie anyway. But before you say anything.. I know.. a lie is a lie.. no matter how big or small. Anyway, here's how the story happened. Date : December 2010 Event : Helping organize and arts and crafts bazaar Relationship Status : In between dating a guy... he disappeared in some random events that ended in a conversation of whether or not we should talk to each other. What happened was, I got involved helping a friend organize this event, and I ended up in a task which I hated; call the artists! Pretty much all my friends know how much I hate phone calls but I ended up doing that task anyway. My friend was overloaded. Point being, I call this artist, really nice guy. So nice, that we ended up chatting for over an hour. So nice, that I google the hell out of him the moment we hang up.. not just google.. google,...

Today, I'm having a micro personal celebration here on the blog. Source: everlastingink.blogspot.com via Anne on Pinterest There are two reasons to celebrate; first reason: I got a new pair of black shoes! Horaaaaay... I've been trying to get a pair of flat shoes that are not peep-toe, ballerina nor have laces since last November. I got a pair! I'm so excited that I feel like singing.. ever saw someone crazy enough to sing for a pair of shoes? "I'm so excited....I just can't hide it" The second reason is, I found the answer for  question that I was trying to answer since February. Do you have any idea what it feels like to find an answer to a 6 months old question? Let me tell you it feels great, especially when this questions makes you feel empowered, able and have something to give instead of a useless feeling that you've been having for 6 months. I apologize for not sharing the question nor answer publicly, but it's somethin...

You know what really sux? The bad boys have left the girl with so many scars that the good boy ends up having to deal with. This applied for the boy, too, naturally