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Emotional Rollercoaster

I've been on a very emotional ride, triggered by accident but grew tremendously over the past few days. I've been really stressed for the last year or so, but especially those last few days, the stress was becoming to o hard to handle, and then "that thing" happened and all hell broke loose. Like it was the straw that broke the camel's back. I just can't contain those feelings and emotions anymore. For the 4th time in 5 days, I sit there, crying in my car by the side of the road, how pathetic, right?!

I'm aware that I am "banaked 3ala nafsi", watching videos or photos that I know will stress me even more, but it's an important sanity check to face yourself in the mirror and remember how small you are. I'm aware that I'm projecting my stress on all the wrong things but I just can't "Compose myself" in poise and courtesy anymore. I'm also aware that I probably messed up a great opportunity, but I myself am confused. Honestly, I'm mentally, emotionally, and physically stressed and that's why I'm laying low.

Anyhow, I have one take on all that's going on, the one thing that got everything started, one advise that I give to whom it may concern...
Don't take me for granted!

Comments

Dina said…
i know how u feel bec i am experiencing the same situation. Just pray to god during sujud to make a way for you to get out from this. i wont forget u in my Du3a'.

May God bless you with happiness
Anonymous said…
إن مع العسر يسر

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