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I didn't get to tell you about Feb. Well, I sort of did; I've been blogging more than usual. But I didn't tell you how it ended.

Feb started with questioning my choices, my friends, my decision and my lifestyle (-1 point). It was a tough start, especially when M gave me a hard time (-1) but that ended well when I realized that I do have very supportive and very understanding friends who actually proved to me that my company is much more important than perhaps a glass of wine (many many friends) (+1 point). Not only that, but that oppportunity got me closer to my friend L (+1). And finally my good friend R gave me a speech on how he wanted to be there for me had I just called him. He was way more supportive than I thought. I actually assumed he'd give me a hard time, but in fact, the guy was so nice (+1).

There have been moments of anger, mostly because of work (-1) but these went away at the last day of work (details later... hard to score here)

There have been hours of loneliness and heart-break (-1) but I made my decision to be strong and move on; to let go ... And with that, came a sense of relief that is beyond my imagination (+1).

There has been a week of boredom, emptiness and being alone. My best friend was sick, the other was depressed facing quarter life crisis or something, a third close friend was busy being promoted and successful , she didn't have time to even chat, my parents where away and my siblings had troubles of their own. Bad Bad week (-1). But then with those getting back to normal, I got the opportunity to get more in touch with all of them, even getting closer and having some bonding time with each (+1)

I had some great bonding moments with my team members at AMAY. I made sure to spend some time with each and every one of them before I leave (+1) and I think it payed off.

Finally, Z and I had our moment. It seems each of us wanted to get t9here but was too shy/reluctant to try. Well, we did it, we bonded. We're great friends (+1)

The realization that life moves on (the beat goes on...), with or without me, and it would only be my loss not to catch up, made me appreciate alot of what I currently have. And made me submit to the will of Allah (or call it give up to fate...or leave it to destiny...or whatever you will). Point being, with that realization.. I was happy (+1)

Life tried to play tricks, ruin my plans, shock me, shake me,break me ....more than once (-1). There was one day towards the end of the month when I was actually stunned. Life slapped me in the face and I didn't even see it coming. I didn't deserve that. I didn't even ask for it. I was sitting peacefully , minding my own business, and then I was hit with a particular event that made me suffer severe emotional imbalance (-1).

But then, I left work! (+1)
And people threw me a wonderful farewell party (+1)
I felt like a queen...a superstar... important and appreciated (+1)
It feels so good when your effort is understood and appreciated (+1)
It feels even better when you feel you made a difference in people's lives and touched their heart (+1)
I started this job silently and left with a bang. I made friends, but no enemies (I hope) (+1)
Left on a good note (+1)
Was praised by my manager as well as everyone else (+1)
My team mates, amazed me! They made the most wonderful card ever (+1) (if you're on facebook, you'll see it as my profile pic) , we went out to celebrate, and they made sure I feel missed and important. (+1) Some wrote me touching words (+1) and Maggie even blogged about me, how cool is that?(+1)
Not only that, but my newly acquired friends from the English Edition went out of their way to make me feel loved (+1).
They even wrote a note on the English Edition fan page about me leaving , how often does one feel so loved!! (+1)

I thank all of you guys. I seriously do! You all are amazing.It was all great!

Well, that's how Feb ended... you do the maths... it's all positive, right!?

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