oh , and by the way...

So many times have I caught my tongue from saying it, spilling it all to you. Although I know saying it will make me feel better, to share this secret with you, I still know how much saying such a thing will complicate matters and it's already as complicated as it is. I sometimes wonder if you have any idea how I feel about you and if you do, then how do you feel about it? Yes, I asked how you feel about it because I wouldn't dare ask you how you feel about me! I don't want you to think about me fearing the consequences, but I do wonder!

I really miss you, you know. Although we still meet occasionally, we don't talk as often as we used to. And even when we do, we don't look each other in the eyes no more. Or at least I don't, I look away in fear that my eyes will give me away. But I have to admit, I'm becoming good at this you-are-as-special-as-anyone-else act. I must have perfected it over time. Trust me, nothing would make me happier than to stop this foolish act, but that's how the protocol goes; you fake it until you make it.

One day, we'll be talking about everyday matters like the weather, traffic , latest movies, books or whatever. You'll probably be boast your opinion which i don't necessarily agree with but admire the way you state it. I'll look at you and feel my emotions overflowing, I would probably finish the conversation leave, then turn back and say "oh, and by the way.. I love you". How would you react?

Note to the reader: The above is based on a true story.