A piece of my mind

" I love you , Dex, so much! I just don't like you anymore" I doubt I can find a more representative quote. Except I wouldn't use "Dex".

A few years back, I read that if you want to succeed in life, surround yourself by successful people. If you want happiness, surround yourself by happy people, and so forth. I'm happy to say, that I'm glad I followed this piece of advice, I feel happier and more confident that I'm in the right direction in life with the newer people I meet. More people with similar interests, ambition and amazingly background. I constantly feel inspired, challenged and renewed. That's a good thing ! The down side is that most of my newly found friends are much younger. I feel I'm starting my 'new me' too late. I should have done that change like 6 years ago. That being said, one might say experience makes you wiser and more mature, which is another good thing. The down side of that equation, is that apparently I come off as too snobbish; experienced, wise, happy and with the illusion of success. Apparently, that scares people off. Do I mind? Sometimes; it does get lonely...

Let go of my hand You said what you have to now Leave, leave... Glen Hansard - Leave

You know, it's usually a cycle I keep going through. I miss you then don't then do all over again. But this time, it's different; I lost interest. I can play those silly games we usually play but deep down inside, you no longer move me, even when you try. I'm turning to stone... and it's because of you.

There are so many things I'd want to say about the series of fortunate and misfortunate events that had let to me talking about financial sheets, but that's the story of another day! Today, I'll just be brief , as the more I plan to say, the more I procrastinate , the less likely it is for anything to be said at all. For the second time in 2 months, I find myself staring blankly at the financial sheets of the startup business plan of SuperMama. How am I, a computer science graduate with no business nor financial training what-so-ever, gonna come up with this!? Last time, I was sending the plan to the MIT Arab Business Plan competition. And guess what, we didn't make it to the finals. Huh, who would have thought we'd make it to the semifinals in the first place! Anyway, the business plan wasn't good enough, so I said, "bet ya Zeww, talk to the experts". I asked for advice and those "experts" were friendly enough to tell me where I went wrong...

الوطنية حاليا جابت منتهاها معايا, لأني حسة ان في امل في التغيير. انا في اخر 6 سنين مثلا كنت دائما المستقبل بالنسبة لي كلمة واحدة : هجرة! علشان كنت حسة ان مفيش امل في ان الوضع يتحسن, ان المصري هيفضل مصري, همجي, , غير منظم على الاطلاق و سلبي غير  قادر على التغيير. كنت كمان ماليش في السياسة خالص, بل بالعكس,قدر المستطاع باحاول افصل نفسي عن الاخبار و الاحداث علشان ميتحرقش دمي و يجيلي اكتئاب . الحقيقة ان قبل يوم 25 يناير بكام يوم قعدت افاكر انا و بعض الاشخاص المقربيين , هو احنا مستنيين ايه علشان نفرقع؟ قصدي, البلد بقت عايزة الحرق من كتر الفساد بجميع انواعه, مش هعددها, مش دي الفكرة , الفكرة ان حسيت قد ايه انا كمان بقيت سلبية و متكتفة. امتى الواحد هايجيب اخره و يقول كفاية, حرام. الحقيقة, فكرت انزل انا كمان المظهرات يوم 25 يناير بس منفعش بس لأول مرة في حياتي, فتحت التلفزيون على قناة الجزيرة, و فتحت تويتر و قعدت اتابع الاخبار اليوم ده كان نقطة انتقالية في حياتي زي ما كان في تاريخ مصر, لان اللي شوفته يومها كان اجابة السؤال الي بدور عليه, امتى هننفجر؟ دلوقتي حالا! من يومها و انا قررت اني مسكت...